Lockdown 125

Lockdown Day 125 - 29 July 2020

Today I saw one of my close cousins who was here on business. She told me about her confrontation with another unseen disease she had recently been diagnosed with. This is after she lost her husband to cancer 7 months ago. To be confronted with so many things in the space of 7 months is really challenging. But to be praising and trusting God in spite of it all is truly inspiring. And so very humbling in a time like this where all I sometimes want to do is shout, "Why??" with my fists in the air. 

After battling the cancer together for nearly 11 months, she not only had to face the future alone (they always did everything together), she had to fight for her rights concerning frozen funds and was confronted with many inner challenges as well. I remember his voice so clearly when I visited them last year while he was in remission, when he said to me, "Cuz, December we're going to surf together." We never did, because he was too ill and I never saw him again. 

I walked away after our chat together, thankful to the core for the life I have in me. For lazy days and fighting days. For happy days and sad days. For being able to feel it when I pinch my skin. Even for righteous anger and joy. But most of all for someone like her in my life. Her existence inspires me to inspire others, pray for those who ask, and spend more time in conversations with my closest people, family and friends alike. 

One of the things of Lockdown I have come to love are the days I have a little extra time after my walk to get going slowly, in stead of hitting the ground running. Wednesdays are particularly cool because there is little involved in our dinner planning, as it is our weekly "braai" day. The side dish is either quick veg or salad. Mom's night off. With a Gin on the side, while I still have some left.  

So tonight I give a shout out to all of you, "my" people. You all know who you are. I look up to my Creator with gratitude and thank Him for still standing next to us, still guiding us all, in spite of ourselves. Because He is the only One who knows all and sees all. Because He's got this.