Lockdown 620

Lockdown Day 620 - 6 December 2021

Yesterday the city was enveloped in one big "mist-like" cloud which was oozing sticky rain, wafting down like feathers. This carried on for most of the day. Although we measured a total of 30mm over the weekend, the Langkloof sadly reported only 5mm since 1 December. 

Today the same cloud moved in around 9am, with wafting sticky rain. We ended up measuring around 5mm. 

With a list of errands, I set about navigating town in this wonderful magical weather. People were out and about, already shopping for christmas, lights and tinsel everywhere lit up the grey day.

This made me wonder why we can't have lights all year round. For us, Christmas is what the name says: Christ's birth celebration. A season for giving on various platforms. And a time to be together, if not in person, in spirit. A time to let those close to us know we love them.

For the first time I understand what my parents must have felt when we were all grown up, left home and did our own thing, how it must have felt when we moved away.

I am thankful for all the times we lived close to our boys and sorry for the times I did not make more of it than I did. I suppose that is also the curse of the parent, to always wonder what we did right or wrong, or could've done more, better or differently.

What I know for sure is we have done what we could when we did, however flawed we were. What I also know for sure is God's presence all the time, keeping our hands up and our hearts in the right place.

So tonight, Christmas in my heart brings a stillness of reflection, refusing to doubt or dwell on the negative, but rather trust in the Truth who holds us all in the palm of His hand and who's in full control.