Lockdown 20

Lockdown Day 20 - 15 April 2020 

At the moment I feel like somebody living on the edge of a Drive Inn. Good visuals, no audio. Like a silent movie. I see the statistics and progression around the globe of this abominable virus and at the same time feel like a spectator. When I'm home and safe. 

But every time I go to the grocery shop I am confronted with all kinds of feelings  like a chorm chaser in the middke of a hurricane. I see a world that is reeling from the shock. I see ghost shops exhibiting stock that doesn't move and wonder about mall rent and great losses. I imagine myself weaving through an unseen cloud, trying to dodge the virus. I see fear in many people's eyes and in some a look of resignation too. But mostly I am shocked to the core by the people I encounter who do not care. People without a mask (I know the virus can go through one, but Jeez it HAS to be better if you keep your spit to yourself), ignoring the distancing rules and literally shoving their face in the personal space of others, blasting their droplets everywhere (YUK) . People refusing hand sanitizer (what kind!?) at the door. People using the bathroom with their child and leaving without washing hands. Some parenting skills🙄. People walking in groups of three or more, forcing others out of their way and then laughing about it. And then there are the deathly (no pun intended) defiant people who sneeze and cough all over without using their elbow and then touches products they don't want before choosing the ones they do want. Really? I think they are the ones completely dissociated and absent from their own lives. Or maybe they're serial killers. Who knows!? 

And then it rains like the monsoon rains and we watch the spectacular lightning show on display and I find myself wanting to lift my arms and shout "hear the Voice of the Lord"!! And suddenly everything else falls into perspective and I get in bed with a hope and faith I cannot explain but am 100% sure of. 100% sure that God is good all the time, and all the time God's got this!