Lockdown 34

Lockdown Day 34 - 29 April 2020

While dreaming of a long, silent underwater swim (thanks to Einstein), I woke abruptly when our alarm went off. At first I thought I had supersonic hearing and was caught up in a dolphin pod's eco-location chatter. A while later we got the news that the minister of health is seriously considering banning outdoor exercise. I was immediately transported from my silent underwater state of mind to a wrestling cage where my opponent was slapping me on my rib cage, causing me to catch my breath sharply, flopping onto the floor, faintly hearing the referee counting 10, 9, 8 ......

Everything in me was screaming but I could not utter a sound. The only thing I kept thinking was they can wake me up after Lockdown. It took more than 30 minutes for me to start my normal Wednesday regime. I wonder how many people just keep on keeping on, beacause if they don't, they'll fall apart. Crying in the shower or behind a mask is most probably some of the coping mechanisms people use. "Nothing like a good cry to make you feel better", my granny used to say. 

A beacon of light were the group calls from my regular coffee friends and family (Mom and Sis) ; a very loud shout out for you guys! 

Following my own resolve I baked and cooked and the hours flew as the government officials were discussing education and back to school dates. And yes I tasted and snacked and the chocolate things started to do their antidepressant magic. I was breathing. And waiting for Truth to find me. My ears were fine-tuned for any news that could pluck me out of my bipolar day. 

And finally, just when I was contemplating an empty blog for lack of anything to say, we heard the words, "Outdoor exercise may take place between 6 and 9am." I felt the heaviness lift and a quiet calm return. For now I am eternally thankful for any outdoor exercise time and utter a silent "yes" for the early morning slot when it is cold and dark, my best time of day. Not wanting to jinx anything, and being cautiously optimistic, I shall reserve my anticipated excitement for Friday morning. 

Whatever happens, I shall breathe. I won't look back. I shall look up and keep on keeping on until we get to the other 

side of this utterly bizarre situation. 

I shall spare a thought for everyone in our country who are fighting their own inner battles and pray for all who don't know the God' who's got this. This is my quiet Truth tonight.