Lockdown 12

Lockdown Day 12- 7 April 2020

This is day 12. Rather unbelievable. On day 10 I wrote this is my truth. We are halfway into the Lockdown and also a quarter of the way into our lifestyle changes and adapting to home life 101. To me it feels like the first stop in a survival hike where you realise your backpack is too heavy and you need to discard things that only weigh you down. I realised today life as I knew it, has now switched places with the unthinkable. For people who were in their own "lockdown" of choice due to trauma, this is kind of 'normal" to them. For people who live in self-induced social isolation, this could be easy to a certain point. If you are a loner, preferring your own company, social distancing is a breeze.  Heck, even for extroverts like me staying home alone has its own lure and attraction. But the one thing that everyone has in common now, is the fact that we cannot really 'go' anywhere.  Impulsive weekend getaways, quick day trips to the country for Sunday Lunch or a simple quick coffee from the nearest roasters is no more. Everything else went virtual. From e-shows for musicians to YouTube church and zoom classes for ballet, aerobics, drawing and lots more. We can even do video calls! But that doesn't substitute human contact and taking the body somewhere, even if it is only to work or forage without time constraints and feeling like you're on Mars with an Oxygen tank that could run out any minute. Even the 'lucky' people who work for the providing of essential services cannot really go anywhere. A bittersweet solution. Media tell me I can travel in my mind, travel on the internet and connect worldwide with whomever I choose. But tonight when the lights are off and my devices shut down, it is just me on this little piece of earth I call home. My body went nowhere. And when I close my eyes to sleep I ask, "Dear God, I am sailing on Thy wide, wide sea; please guard my little ship for me." With Him I can go wherever He wants to take me, and for now that's enough.  In the dark of night I see the mercury-like pinkish super moon spilling it's light into our room and I know God's got this.