Manners and Srennam

Wish I knew how to handle people without manners. Not even Twitter or Facebook is the way to go because my parents taught me to be civil at all times. So, how do I indeed be myself?? Its like this semi-crumbled wall ready to topple at any minute, but wonderfully manages to to stay upright. A bit like the Leaning Tower.....people have waited for centuries and yet, nothing happens!! But they do not see what is happening underneath as the earth it stands on quietly shifts and retreats. The worst is, when it eventually does topple,  people will say, " oh my goodness, did it really fall?" or, " I can't believe it, it actually went down!" Duh!!! You don't say.....!
People seem to be either indifferent/careless or too correct (politically/personally). Either way, being yourself does not fit in with any of these templates. If they do care, they are fake and if they don't care, they are selfish. So which am I? I am definitely fake toward people who let me down, after which I turn honest to the point of being too direct/tactfully insulting. I am selfish since I turned 40 because nobody ever considered me worthy before, and due to the fact that I now speak my mind, I am labelled as the don't care type. Thus my conclusion about mankind is somewhat confusing. However, the one thing about myself that is undeniably true is the fact that I find it extremely difficult to act normal....my father used to say there are no grey areas with me, and although I pride myself on trying the nonchalant thing, I admit I totally failed the test!
Normal to me is what is expected, normal is safe mode, normal is to blend in, be unobtrusive, normal is to do and say what is expected (regardless of one's personality and 'uniqueness'). Oh, I am fully conscious that each person is unique, but do they actually know what their own unique looks like? There are groups of people who are unique, such as the cycling club or the hippies in a commune. But, are the individuals inside these group still living out their unique persona outside of being a group member? Are they all 100% bought into the group's way of life? There is one true test to determine the answer: are they energised or are they constantly fighting fatigue?
Within these answers lie a million other issues also pertaining to humankind: amongst others, to live energised, do what is needed to generate energy and learning to listen to our bodies. People have NO interest whatsoever in other people's health lives and generally expects all people to permanently run on empty. The first people on earth were more intelligent than any person living today. They did what they needed to do, not HAD to finish, and knew when to rest and rejuvenate. They lived much longer than we can dream of, had fewer diseases, more herbal nutrition and of course, survival instinct. This instinct goes against all "rules" of normal as we know it and above all is not indusive to conforming. This instinct creates the Amundsens and Armstrongs of the world, reduces champions to drug users and children to outcasts. Could it be that maybe, just maybe, if people were allowed to stay in that caveman-like state while growing technologically, things turned out a little differently? Sure, mankind is starting to realise they need to rectify the mistakes, but unfortunately the cure will remain unattainable. So at the risk of becoming wildly unpopular, I now , still being mindful, speak my mind. To everyone. About everything, anything and anybody. Like it or not, this is me.