Lockdown 50

Lockdown Day 50 - 15 May 2020

Day 50! Wow. I'm sure many of us are in some kind of daily routine, getting things done as best we can, trying not to think about this too much. I keep wanting to go out for a walk at odd times, and invent reasons to fill the trash so I can take it out to the place where everyone in the matchboxes have to put their trash. Roxy is especially alert and jumps up when she hears me getting the bag ready. She gets to accompany me, walking without a leash. 

To get there we walk inbetween 12 matchboxes, crossing our entry road. Most days we never see a soul. This is the only unchanged routine  and definitely makes it feel as if the world is normal again. This time we actually passed two people in their little back yard and greeted politely. Then the lady asked me if we are okay. I stopped and we introduced ourselves, having a quick chat about lockdown living. We have never met before. 

I had a strange feeling this encounter was not just a coincidence. When we said goodbye and we were walking back home, I looked up and saw a thin string of clouds right above us, standing out against the baby blue sky. Just like the lines on a road. I immediately knew they were showing the way. 

Back inside, I went to sit in the green room and pondered the sight of those clouds. I felt encouraged to keep going, “toe the line”, put one foot in front of the other. That is the way to go. And then it hit me. You know how a train on a track, once on its way to a destination, only goes forward? Leave the past just there: it has passed! Looking back in remembrance is possible, but this is a chance for us to change the not so good things, to try that something new we have thought would never work but had potential. 

To recognise our strength does not lie in how our life was before this, but how we lived inside of it that matters. To dig extra deep for that spark we know is still there. Change can only induce the birth of something new if there is pain. This is my reality tonight. I am writing from the pain deep down in my being, the part that is mourning what was before all this. But, as turning back is no longer an option, looking up and putting one foot in front of the other, small changes make each new day bring a twinkle of its own. 

So keep your eyes open, because if you blink, you might just miss it! And when you see it you’ll know there is a way and a vision set before you by your Creator. Choose to take it, folllow it and choose to believe Gods got this.  

I leave you with the words of Isaiah 30:21, "Your ears shall hear a word behind you, saying, “This is the way, walk in it,” Whenever you turn to the right hand Or whenever you turn to the left."